Writing is a way which i think i can remind myself to think positive. its a wonder how i always fall apart and go into withdrawal mode. Though i understand the need to be patient and put in effort... the environment just somehow swallows me and puts me into a dark tunnel with no light. The inferior self sets in and everything seem impossible. the dreams, the plans, the future.. turns to a bleak.

there was so much in me that i wish to express, and more often than not, i chose to hide, escape and run away. i used to think that i've become more independent than before, more adventurous than who i was 5 years ago. Indeed, the journey thus far was full of learning and self realisation. i cannot stop and will not stop chasing the dream. i accept your criticisms because i know you want me to be better.

"if you want to change someone, you have to first change yourself." Remind me, if i'm falling short of expectation. Praise me when I have done the mark. I strive to pursue my dream. To the future, cheers.