i've been blogging very random posts lately.
nothing happening and exciting, unless you want me to write a full description of my mahjong-ing weekend or driving lessons. bleh.

well well, i guess things changes as we age, priorities are different too.
i remember the times when i was in secondary and JC, hanging out with friends was always priority, but going and staying at home often sent grumbles. Family togetherness wasn't my utmost concern then. and what now? work expectation, aspirations, ambitions...? nobody said it is easy to grow up. urgh. When life gives many options and choices, i begin to feel uncertain and insecure. but when the choices are few, we lament the unfairness and complain and whine like there's no tmr. boo.

i wonder how many people out there is contented with their life, with the things they have. Recently, i've been feeling contented over little things. I dont know whats causing this change in me. It might only be for a fleeting period for all I know. but feeling contented is good.. it also meant lowering my expectations. SO.. the air is suddenly lighter now, easier for me to breathe. anything more than whats expectated is a surprise and will make me uber happy. =) i hope this last.

i'm starting to get used to many things.
1. Not being as close as we used to be with my love. Doing occasional catch ups on msn.. i hope she's happy. love love~
2. Missing the fridays night out with those kakis.
3. Sleeping alone w/o sis around
4. Daily counting down to Fridays and dragging feets on Monday mornings
is it good or bad? or havent i tried to make enough effort? i dont know. =(

oh and today, for the first time ever since i started work, i skipped lunch and stayed in office. i used to say how sad i'll be if i'm going to be couped in office during lunch time. i think i'm mad. i'm eating little for dinner, and uncle toby-ed for lunch. i'm beginning to be weight conscious. roar. please remind me to eat more..i hope i'm not bulimic.

mumbling on
Tuesday, April 07, 2009 at 9:19 PM