was down to Junction8 with my parents to watch my cousin perform cos he got into semifinals of a talentquest.i would call it 明星梦 las. but oh wells,
'dare to dream' i suppose. he didnt get into finals in the end..but at least its an experience gained, at least he dare to pursue his dream.
waited 4 long hrs for the results..so i went jalan jalan with mum n bro.
i realise mum has not been going to shopping centres for donkey months. she didnt know J8 has changed and it shld hav been years since the last time she step into orchard? i feel so bad. when sakae, crystal jade, ding tai fung, nydc, haagen das
(yadah yadah) are so common to me, and these are so alien to her. it makes me want to earn lotsa money to let them enjoy life. being tie down by bro, she cant have the freedom to go anywhere she fancies. i feel guilty.. of the times i've often go shopping and hav the freedom to njoy life, of the times that i've took her for granted. i promise i will not lose my temper on her anymore n i want to bring her out often..
when i got the money to spare of cos.when i was a child, mum n dad will bring sis me n bro to birdpark, zoo, beaches..i can still remember the regular sundays breakfast. until when their child became teenagers..n start having their own programmes.when at this point of time, it is not possible to even sit down to hav dinner tgt. dinners were all done in front of television. communication lessened and we are all preoccupied with our own stuffs. tsktsk. i often forget they're getting old too.
i realise that what parents offer are one-sided love that dont expect any in return.
very cliche but true.
Sorry by Buckcherry
Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue,
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all you're sounds,
and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry
This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried it's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry
mumbling on
Friday, February 22, 2008 at 4:28 PM
the disorganised, frustrated thoughts
wow. its been quite some time.
so much has happened. so many to say.
sighs.its a low low mood now.
i like to do stuffs that seems impossible. tsktsk. jus like checking
that yahoo mail and '0 unread mails' popped up. woahh. wad am i expecting? its not like money will rain frm the sky, not like singapore will snow - impossible. when i alr know its gonna be a bad ending yet i'm still travelling in that way..when all is well and i stirred the storm.seriously, i dunno what i'm doing.
i feel stucked. boos. like the butt got trapped in between the toilet bowl and the shits are waiitng for me to sit on them. bad description, haha.
well, there are better days/moments. korean bbq, cny mahjong, v-day: fondue, champange, mcflurry.
there's jus problems after problems.. ggrrr. fyp fyp fyp fyp fyp fyp fyp fyp!!!!!!
i'm running out of time here.. and the damn quotation jus dont pass. woahh... the frustration is at ultimate high. and its time to study n stop procrastinating. and that fyp report too.
mumbling on
Sunday, February 17, 2008 at 11:36 PM