its been some time. =(

midst of exam, 2 papers down. u must b wondering y aint i studying? tsk.
i wonder sometimes if studying really helps. the day before the paper, i'm sure that i can uds the subj wholly, yet the next moment sitting in front of the paper, i cant do at all! its such a frustrating feeling.. and walking out of the examination hall, u cant help but hope there will be moderation! tsktsk.

everyone wishes the best in their life, a stable job, a cosy family, a bright future, financial stability, materialistic wants etc..seems difficult to be contented. contentment is sth that i am still learning. the expectation for sth better, kills me. well, it might not be sth bad.. rather than just expecting, put into action and make it happen! but its easier said than done. i couldnt slp the whole night, spent time thinking on what i shld do. then i decided to place the matter down and see how. its not the first time.. whenever i cant solve sth, i'll choose to leave it until when the matter comes back and haunts me again. its bad in decision making.. yes, i noe. i'm a low risk taker, or rather i'm afraid of change.

Change encompass a train of consequences: actions, people around me, how they think and feel, how I think and will feel. its so much to bear... hmmm. i wan courage to embrace change. i will learn and someday, i'll b more decisive? haha.

mumbling on
Thursday, November 15, 2007 at 8:37 PM