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+ ning
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gah!
If only i can shut my ears.. i'm tired of listening to what she has to say. it doesnt make sense to me anymore. i cant express myself as well as they do.. but i jus wan to do wat i wan, wat i feel i shld do. i am not gg to let them jeopardise my life.. pls stay away frm me if u are gg to upset me. yes i'm not gg to trust anymore. STOP bluffing your way thru n pollute my mind. i noe i've changed. at least, i'm more independent now. at least, i've seen thru the ugliness of human nature, including myself. i'm not being pessimistic.. but its how the world is.
If only i can shut my ears.. i'm tired of listening to what she has to say. it doesnt make sense to me anymore. i cant express myself as well as they do.. but i jus wan to do wat i wan, wat i feel i shld do. i am not gg to let them jeopardise my life.. pls stay away frm me if u are gg to upset me. yes i'm not gg to trust anymore. STOP bluffing your way thru n pollute my mind. i noe i've changed. at least, i'm more independent now. at least, i've seen thru the ugliness of human nature, including myself. i'm not being pessimistic.. but its how the world is.
mumbling on
Sunday, January 21, 2007 at 6:25 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007 at 6:25 PM
grumbles
why am i always feeling tired after work?
i do miss the times when i can slp in lectures, walk ard in sch aimlessly, missing classes, slp late and wake up late, eat n slack n talk at any time i like..
i cant imagine this is the kind of life i'll b leading for my next 30yrs or so..
why am i always feeling tired after work?
its only like the 3rd day of work n EVERYDAY i'm worn out.
dont feel like gg anywhere, dont feel like doing anything.. jus want to go home n SLEEP.
urgh, i'm not v v bz in the office.. at least still hav time to skive abit here n there..
but why why why? =(
i do miss the times when i can slp in lectures, walk ard in sch aimlessly, missing classes, slp late and wake up late, eat n slack n talk at any time i like..
but in office.. i cant slp.. and i've got no time to buy my ration n place them in my drawer.. i have to b punctual. i cant lie on bed and tell myself there's online lectures anymore. i feel confined to my own workspace. basically, lesser freedom.
i cant imagine this is the kind of life i'll b leading for my next 30yrs or so..
i DONT WANT!!!!!
weekends are my only hope now.
yea.. i'm grumbling againz.
mumbling on
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 at 11:36 PM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 at 11:36 PM
first day of attachment
first day of attachment.
8.30 am - 10.00am : briefings... and more briefings
10.00am - 11.00am : sat in my workspace, staring into my lao pok comp. was given this product brochures.. i tink i read it over 5 times.
11.00am - 12.30pm : another briefing + get to know all the team members
12.30pm - 1.15 pm : lunch break under the sweltering weather
1.15pm - 3.00pm : stare into space + sms-ing + almost dozing off
3.00pm - 4.00pm : product training... launching of some new product.
4.00pm - 5.45pm : o.O the IT person came n install MSN!!!!!! BUT.. its used within the company.. n its my company email. hais. MORE staring into space + surfing the company's website to find out more abt their stuffs.. jus wanting to find sth to do.
first day of attachment.
8.30 am - 10.00am : briefings... and more briefings
10.00am - 11.00am : sat in my workspace, staring into my lao pok comp. was given this product brochures.. i tink i read it over 5 times.
11.00am - 12.30pm : another briefing + get to know all the team members
12.30pm - 1.15 pm : lunch break under the sweltering weather
1.15pm - 3.00pm : stare into space + sms-ing + almost dozing off
3.00pm - 4.00pm : product training... launching of some new product.
4.00pm - 5.45pm : o.O the IT person came n install MSN!!!!!! BUT.. its used within the company.. n its my company email. hais. MORE staring into space + surfing the company's website to find out more abt their stuffs.. jus wanting to find sth to do.
n tadah! finally the day ended.
phew~ its tiring lors. even though i do nothing.. but *yawnz* its the first day at work.. and i'm not so adaptable to new environment n product marketing isnt my field AT ALL!!!!
phew~ its tiring lors. even though i do nothing.. but *yawnz* its the first day at work.. and i'm not so adaptable to new environment n product marketing isnt my field AT ALL!!!!
is it too small? nvm tt ugly char on the badge.. but SEE that?? at least strain ur eyes abit n take notice ar.. i'm the prodt mktg exec.. hoho~ sounds nice huh. =D
but i tink the job's not nice at all.. pray hard hard this 6 mths will go well..
bo pi bo pi.. >.<
mumbling on
Monday, January 08, 2007 at 9:09 PM
Monday, January 08, 2007 at 9:09 PM
nightmare.
i kept running down the stairs.. i didnt noe where i was.. i kept running n running, as if
sth/someone is chasing after me.i wasnt alone.. but i cant rmb who i was wif. and den.. i realise i'm back to the same spot where i was. the stairs nv seem to end. i panicked...and jumped out of the window...
hurr.. sounds similar to those scenario in typical horror movies... although it was jus a nightmare.. the fear was overwhelming. the thought of it still makes me shudder.
oh wells.. jus a nightmare.
i kept running down the stairs.. i didnt noe where i was.. i kept running n running, as if
sth/someone is chasing after me.i wasnt alone.. but i cant rmb who i was wif. and den.. i realise i'm back to the same spot where i was. the stairs nv seem to end. i panicked...and jumped out of the window...
hurr.. sounds similar to those scenario in typical horror movies... although it was jus a nightmare.. the fear was overwhelming. the thought of it still makes me shudder.
oh wells.. jus a nightmare.
mumbling on
Thursday, January 04, 2007 at 1:53 AM
Thursday, January 04, 2007 at 1:53 AM
yr2007
oh yea. its growing spider webs.
oh yea. its growing spider webs.
i feel that there's nth much to update cos nth reli special happen n nth i'm hoping gonna b happening.
i feel a difference in this school holiday.
cos.. i didnt meet up my sec sch frens, not even those s15 girls n those uni kakis.. didnt meet my san san either. its jus so not me.. there's no sentosa planning. there's no gatherings..no surprise visit for san. stuffs tt i wanted to do at the beginning of this holiday hasnt been fulfilled. hur.. frm 2006 procrastinate til 2007. wat a bad start.
i havent go jogging. havent read a bk. havent go prawning. =( i noe.. the list goes on..
jus where hav my 3 weeks of holidays gone?
ans: spent at acoustic.
darn.. i havent get the chance to enjoy this holiday. i havent get the money to reward n buy myself a new phone. i wonder when am i gg to receive my pay.. i wonder when can i go shopping.
oh wells.. its the year 2007.
a new yr a new start. wont lament abt money matters anymore..hopefully the attachment will help me out of my financial crisis. things will work its way out. i'm getting lazy recently. refuse to tink, refuse to complicate. refuse to analyse n watever not tt needs to read between the lines. i'm doing wat i can do, wat i want to do.. things tt are within my means. those out of reach, i wont desire. those not tt i can give, sorry i'm not wat u expect tt i was.
i believe i'm out of the rock bottoms and i believe i'll b happy.
year 2006 was an eventful yr.. indeed, very.
it brings me thru n lets me learn n grow up ALOT. been thru phases of different emotions..most importantly, being stronger n more independent. i've learnt tt nobody needs any other one to survive. i've changed. o.O
the new year..
thou shall treat myself better.
prioritise my stuffs.. be more rational than emotional.
shldnt cry as much as i did this yr.
i wan laughters, excitement fun n joy.
those tt are gg to affect me achieving the above pls kp away frm me.
n i'm planning a trip after my attachment.. so so so looking forward to it.
if all goes well..=D
mumbling on
Tuesday, January 02, 2007 at 2:14 AM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007 at 2:14 AM