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raining...


i havent been studying in front of my comp this semester.
i realise i cant concentrate. . esp wif my comp on.
nevertheless, i'm gonna take up this challenge n study in front of it today.
i have my study table beautifully wrapped up wif mahjong paper and a plastic cover some months back.. in addition of the frequent doodles and messages of frens tt they forcefully wrote when they chanced upon my room. a look of the words on my table, spell a negative n depressed me.

i always try to b contented wif wat i hav. but it seems otherwise.
its torturing when ur heart n mind doesnt go in the same way.
i wanna break free frm my thoughts.. its killing me.
i tink i'm living in my world of self-denial..
maybe.. its the rainy weather tt is giving me this tinge of melancholy.
sighs.

its raining, againz.
i wanna hide somewhere n nv b found.


mumbling on
Saturday, November 25, 2006 at 12:56 AM

daddy mummy


daddy came fetch me frm sch after my paper today!!
freaking timing this semester.. almost all my papers r in the evening, 5-7pm, n by the time i reach home its alr 9..?
heh heh, it's those rare chances tt he'll come n fetch me =D
today's paper was quite screwed, and i THOUGHT i was well-prepared for it -.-
the amt of devastation n disappointment n disgust-ness was over-whelming.
rites.. its over anyways.

and,
i realise sth today...

daddy aged alot.
n i'm guilty of not noticing it.
his white hair is growing with signs of balding.. lines on his face are more obvious now. n his energy lvl dropped alot..(i caught him yawning a few times). he was driving.. n he cant see as well as b4 anymore. he kept asking me wat those rd signs read while we were finding our way to NUH. ...seems tt he shrunk abit in size too.
was it tt we tend to treat our family member for granted? when i'm home, i'll expect dinner. n sometimes i still complain the food's not nice, not salty enuf, or too oily..do u say 'thanks' to ur mum after every dinner? for their hardwork in cooking n preparing for the family's meal? seriously, i DO appreciate wat my parents are doing.. but i dont say it.
i wont tell them i love them. but i do.
i wont tell them how much i appreciate them. but i do.
when i go shopping, when i'm having better food in better restaurants.. daddy n mummy didnt get what i'm enjoying. they spent almost half of their life slogging for this family.
guilty.
but i'm glad tt i am supporting myself financially. at least i dont ask for money.
n i've been gd? i tink...o.O

i wan bring in money n let them enjoy.
i wan them to lead a gd life.
they wear me proud.. n i will do them proud.



mumbling on
Tuesday, November 21, 2006 at 11:42 PM

exams blues


its the time of the semester againz.
exams.. EXAMS!!!
yeaz.. mugging period is gg to end in 3 weeks time =D
its the time i'll feel guilty when i go out to play.
its the time i feel tt i need more chocolates.
n it is definately the time for pimples too~

n y is everything coming back to me when such a crucial period is up?
why, when of ALL times..
i've said, void of feelings.
go away. dont disturb the peaceful life i thot i'm having.

hang in there ppl. gambate~!!


mumbling on
Tuesday, November 14, 2006 at 9:24 PM