its more than words

- the words -

- the wants -

+ ~~braces~~

- the lovelies -

- the past -

- now playing -

thoughts

i've been talking to myself in the head so much tt its driving me crazy.

i know, i know.

i'm sorry i cant forgive myself, i cant forget what u did either.

the hurt n pain tt it brought is far too much tt i can handle so cooly, like u did.

i know i'm stupid.. n many ppl hav told me tt. not worth it, i've heard.

i cant believe u can b so nonchalant abt me now.

all the words u said are bullshit. i dont wan to bring it up againz. i guess u will hate me more.

jiayun isnt like this.. i've lost control of myself.

when u wrecked n turn my world upside down.. when u gave me up n stop loving.

when u are all happy n "less pressurised' now.

when all the sweet-nothings turn to b bullshit.

when i'm hurting myself far too much n the pain becomes immuned.

when i cannot stop my tears n hating myself.

when u turn a deaf ear to everything i've said.

the sucky feeling nv ends..

thoughts flooding my mind.

the internal struggle is building a tension tts pulling on my nerves.

hide it, conceal it n put in a dark corner of the room.

i'll survive though..

i'll b stronger than wad i tink.

i'm not gg to b defeated by u.

mumbling on
Saturday, October 14, 2006 at 10:01 PM